Jessie's World

Jessie's World

Monday, June 4, 2012

Pasukan sa Pinas

Umpisa na naman ng pasukan. Non-stop na ang news tungkol sa mga eskwela, pamimili ng gamit, mga istoryang nakakaantig ng damdamin, sakripisyo at syempre ang kakulangan ng mga klasrum, guro at malinis na mga banyo.

Paulit-ulit na lang, kada taon...pare-parehong eksena. Simula't sapul na nagkaisip ako, ganito na ang ganap sa mga pampublikong eskwelahan ng pinas. Nakakalungkot isipin na nagdaan na ang dekada at napakaraming politiko pero napag-iwanan parin ang estado ng edukasyon.

Saan napupunta ang pondo? Saan nawawaldas ang pork barrel?

Ang daming naghahangad ng matinong edukasyon, pasalamat na lang ako at kaya ng magulang ko nuon na sa private kaming magkakapatid kundi, diyos ko, delubyo siguro!

Mahirap mag-aral sa siksikang klasrum, kahit di ko naranasan, hindi naman ako manhid para hindi malaman yun. Nakakabwisit ang maiinit tas katabi mo pa ay nagpapawis. Pasakit ang maghati-hati sa iisang libro...paano ka nga ba matututo sa ganun? Nakakatamad lang. Tapos, no offense, lahat ng teacher alam ko nagsasakripisyo, pero ung iba hindi qualified. Tipong napilitan lang magturo ng subject dahil kulang nga sa guro. Sablay sa english, sa math o di kaya science. Kawawang estudyante. Mali-mali ang malalaman.

Ayan, ganyan sa Pinas..sana naman next year maiba na. Yung tipong maeenganyo ang estudyanteng pumasok hindi dahil bago ang gamit niya kundi dahil marami siyang matututunan sa isang komportable at safe na lugar.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

JUst another day at the office


Pasta spaghetti...Pepsi that sizzles...gulp! These made my morning, yet not my day. Am waiting for something, waiting for someone. Staring at the ceiling, am most falling asleep. Move, move...I need to move. Raise my heart's beat *tagudog...tagudog*. Papers and folders and a monitor screen. Do I have an email??? Nah, I don't even have a connection. pfft! Then my phone rang...Finally a familiar voice!Chit-chat is it...

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Christmas

Christmas is the time:

To share...
To love...
To give...
And to forget...

Everyday should be Christmas! :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Cancer

I was with her during her chemo days. Seeing her everyday was a trauma for me. I mean, the chemo didn't resulted her to became weak and vomit as mostly people under treatment are. Nonetheless, the thought that she is on stage 3, going 4 already, only means one thing. And it happened last night.

My Aunt Rebing died last night due to cancer: cervical cancer to be exact. I no longer know what to feel. I cried for her lost and, this may sound wrong, glad that finally she'd joined our creator. No more pain, no more suffering, no more cancer battle.

*sigh* She's the 7th this year for our family...I want to turn numb, to no longer feel the pain of losing someone but I can't...Sad Christmas really it is. :(

Friday, December 16, 2011

Jogging

How I wish that Santiago City is like Da Fort: I can jog at night without taking the weird looks and impressions, "What the hell is she doing?".

Metro mentality, I misses you :(!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Math do me no good!

I just had an online examination this morning and for the nth time, Math had murdered me! Seriously, what's with me and Math that we can not get along with? I am not good when it comes to numbers. I know the basics, MDAS (multiplication, addition, division and subtraction) and aside from that, am a total dumb ass. I don't even know or should I say, lucky me I passed my college Math!

The Math examination has fractions, ratios, percentages and all in it. I seriously freaked out and stupid me, in my desperation to solved it, I googled "Scientific Calculator!" Genius of me right??? tsk, tsk... That didn't helped me at all.

I stared blankly to my monitor and the heck did what I know best when it comes to Math, mini-my-ni-mo...I just clicked whatever answer I guessed would be right. Now, am waiting for the result of it...Am no longer aiming to have a high score, all I want is to pass! 75% would be good enough...I really have my fingers crossed, both hands and feet on it!

Silly me, Fuck you Math!!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

the idea

Everyone's getting married and starting a family. Almost every quarter, two or more of my batch mates (high school and college), even my friends would announce that they are pregnant or gonna be married. That got me thinking...

You know the feeling of being left out and getting to age??? That's what am dealing right now. They are on that state already when in the first place I haven't found a decent boyfriend! Poor me!!!

The situation is literally bugging me because am just 21! The hell???!!! I can't imagine myself settling down at this point in my life. Nonetheless, am jealous with them...Seeing their babies and living a new life.

Now I admit it, more or less am dreaming the what ifs if I'll be married or have a kid by this date...dumbidum...dumbidum...would I be happy just in case?

Been reiterating with my blogs that I am ambitious, but in that sense, none in my ambition is to be married...dreaming, not aiming for it. I even told my friends that am really not seeing myself with a husband in the future...just kid/s which is inconsiderate of me. I am numb...I became numb (blame my misfortunes when it comes to love) *sigh*

But who knows right? we can never can tell what would be in the future. Maybe, maybe..maybe one day I can also announce, "GUYS AM PREGNANT! or, GUYS, AM GETTING MARRIED" *that comes out weird* *sigh*