For years I am numb. There's a story behind it...The pain I've been through caused this wall of not entertaining the so called, love.
Am I happy? Yes...for quite sometime...I've enjoyed knocking down each and every opportunity of actually falling to something---to someone...but lately I've wondered...
There are the what ifs and the why not...and I actually entertained the concept again of letting someone in with my life...
But the joke was on me...sad to admit...I no longer know how to manage...to control this emotion of mine.
I expect---too much. I want to cling which is becoming annoying. I am irritated already to what I have become. What's wrong with me?
I want to please but then I couldn't. I became a monster of craving for attention.
Guess am asking for too much. I kept on saying that life's a bitch but moreover, I can't afford to deal with it. Sigh...just sigh.