majors....majors

3 major subjects for this sem...3 subjects that sucks my energy...hahaha..as usual...the over-lappings of tension and exhaustion.......

thousands of pages should be read and memorized..the heck..anong klaseng utak ang dapat pairalin???...do i have that kind of memory to figure everything out once am asked to discuss certain article or ang kaleche-lecheng sections???...

local government code...family code...the revised penal code...amf...

pagbitbit pa lang ng libo-libong pahina ng libro ay nakaka-stress na...huhu..

hay..do i really have the gutts to be a lawyer???...hahaha...thoughts...thoughts...do i have to change plans for my fucking future???...amf..

hard is it...shit...

just another day

busy as a bee..perhaps..or just assuming..hahah...feeling busy..tsk..

report again sa parliamentary debate...taz ano pa ba????

la pa ding net sa house,,amf....

ooOoppppPPPzzzZZZ

isn't bihon..haha..its canton pala...

my bad:)

what a day!...ass....

i don't have internet connection(yeah i know it's a crap...)...my memory stick is borrowed by my uncle and when i needed it...(another crap)..he told me, "nasa printing pa, bukas ko pa ibabalik"....tsk...tsk...

well, it's only this afternoon that i was informed that i need to report on parliamentary debate and i should have a power point presentation of it...the twist of all twist is that...i have to do the report tomorrow...!!!

that is quick..fucking stressful quick...don't know what to do because as i'd mentioned above, the greatest creation of man was out of my league...for now, when i most needed it...

here i am, sitting in the net shop for quite irritating 3 hours and until now i couldn't find a way on how to download the videos i'd searched...lecheng problema ng sites..pati ako dinadamay...

nauna ang friendster...sumunod ang facebook..pati youtube ay nagkanda leche-leche at ang mga free sites for movies and cracks is under construction!!!..gaano ako kamalas ngayong araw na ito???..................grrRRrrrrRRRrrrRRRrrrr

okay...well, this afternoon turned night schedule of mine is really a headache..and i don't know on how on earth would i possibly finish my report...hmmm...finishing isn't an issue pala...ang kagandahan ang issue..hahaha...

panget...panget...walang kwenta for sure ang matatapos kong presentation...napaka-galing...nakakababa ng self-esteem...amf:(....

tapos...bukas, i'll be going to school with this huge eye bags...haAaaaaaaaAAAAh..can't imagine how would it be tomorrow...nyaks!..

bahala na si batman and just hoping for the best...and crossed fingers not to have the worst..wahahaha............

am going crazy!

the language of sisters

i have this book for quite sometime now..and i haven't had the time to read it thoroughly until yesterday...

at first, i felt bored and kinda, "what the heck am i reading..."..moreover after some pages, i realized that i'd been spending my time wisely in reading this fiction novel...

language of sister, it's quite peculliar actually...even science may not explain how does it really works...it is a secret language of hearts that only those who care to listen and seek for the answer may be able to hear and acknowledge such...

the story passes so many conflicts that perhaps helps it readers to understand the way of life...

anger...love, seeking for attention...passion for forgiveness...opening of old grudge...opening a new world of life...

king bihon...

i don't actually know the exact name...it may be king bihon or whatever..hahaha..basta, what i know for sure is that, it is a bihon...a very yummy bihon...

yummy...yummy...yummy...

me, luv and mau went to marilens...after a sooOoooo long discussion if we're gonna eat or not...

we ordered this thing and yes am glad about its taste:)...we spent about an hour just to finish a plate of it..may shrimp, squidballs, fried chicken..mushrooms at kung ano-ano pang toppings that i surely loved...hmmmmmmmmmm...

next time..i'll be back for more..haha..durbab

colds...

darn the weather...

hahaha...colds..colds...

accCcchhhHhhooo...poor me:(

no net...

hay...i don't know if i should be happy or not...

wala na ung net sa bahay...tapos na ang 2 years contract,...

happy because...sa wakas, hindi na mabagal ang net at baka sakaling mapalitan na ng mas mabilis...

sad, dahil..i have to spend 20 pesos or more just to accomodate my net schedule for checking mails and blogs..hayst..tsk..tsk...

sana...sana..magpakabit na ng bagong net..ung mabilis..haha

para sa'yo..leche ka!

my night was so good because atlast my training is already over...

am so happy that at that night am with my friends...spending quality time with them and having fun with baby mj's 2nd b-day...

after abe and tet finished their 6 bottles of beer, we decided to join the boy's group for another drinking session...moreover..what happened next is such a fucking pain in my ass!!!

Princer, seating infront of me asked, "kamusta na si darwin?"..i just answered him with a smile..but then i guess my answer isn't enough for him that's why he asked again, "Musta na kayo ni darwin?"...at that very moment i don't know how should i be reacting...then i just immediately blurted-out..."wala na kami...ok?matagal na!"...

Nagkatinginan ang mga tao sa table namin at ito na lang ang nasabi ni princer.."sorry, hindi ko alam...akala ko kayo pa..."...well, i forgive him for that...sabagay, hindi naman siguro lahat ng tao nakakaalam sa lahat ng mga pangyayari sa lovelife ni angelina at brad pitt...

hmmm...the story doesn't end there..eto na ang nagpakulo ng dugo ko ng sobra-sobra...

abe, naka-upo sa tabi ko was talking crazy like she always does...tet, busy talking with the new member of the group..at ako..nakapalaman sa kanilang dalawa..in short, nasa gitna nila ako...

so here it goes...

abe asked me," cno bang boyfriend mo ngayon?"...

hindi ako umimik..ngumiti lang...narinig ni tet ang tanong kaya natawa na lang siya...siniko si tet tapos sinabi ko.."wag kang maingay.."..tapos nagtawanan na lang kami...

abe, being as talkative as ever ay dinugtungan ang litanya niya.."etong babaeng 'to napaka-sikreto...sino bang boyfriend mo ha???"

just to answer her foolishness i'd answered, "bakit?kelangan ba kasi sabihin ko lahat???"..sabay tingin kay tet at nagtawanan ulit kami...

what follows ay ang ka-lechehang statement na kagimbal-gimbal...

abe: "napaka-sikreto mo talagang babae ka..kaya tuloy..."
jeje: "kaya tuloy ano?"...hmmm...
abe: "kaya tuloy (i quote) PINAGMAMALAKI AT PINAGKAKALAT NI DARWIN NA HANGGANG NGAYON HINDI KA PA DAW MAKA-MOVE ON SA KANYA!"
jeje: "ano???"
abe: "un nga...sinasabi ni darwin na hindi ka daw maka-move-on..kaw kasi hindi ka nagkwekwento kung may boyfriend ka na"
jeje: "WHAT???"....

ayon na..ang masaya at tahimik na gabi ko ay nasira dahil sa lecheng statement na yon...

hindi maka-move-on???what the fuck..its been what a year or so???sorry am not checking my calendars...baka ikaw chinecheck mo..anyway..eto lang sagot ko sa'yo...MR. DARWIN CRUZ!!!


yes, i was broken hearted back then..way back..centuries ago!!!...fuck..yes i love you..with all my heart but that was way...way...way..back...panahon pa ng mga dinosaurs nuon..kaya nga siguro pumatol ako sa'yo!hahaha..am not being sarcastic or what...but am just telling the truth..ang kapal ng tagyawatin mong mukha para sabihin at ipagkalat ang mga bagay na yon!!!...

i treated you and your girlfriends so nicely..i even make friends with them because they are nice unlike you...ginulo ba kita ng kahit minsan lang para sabihin mo un..the nerve, asa ka naman...why don't you get a life???eto piso..bili ka ng palakang mabwibwisit mo!!!...

naaasar ako..nabwibwisit ng sobra-sobra..

just to make a clarification, am not acting bitter, gusto ko lang sabihin lahat ng nararamdaman ko...

fuck...fuck...fuck...who the hell you think you are para magsabi ng ganun???shiIiiIiiitTTtt..kung sana ikaw si brad pitt..then go...kahit ano ipagkalat mo ayos lang...eh kaso hindi...

ano bang pinagmamalaki mo ha???ung kotse mo na nissan corolla 1991 model na kulay green..mukhang plema..o baka naman yang mukha mo na pimple na tinubuan lang ng ulo???...

ayokong manlait, but you're fucking forcing me...nananahimik ako tapos ganyan gagawin mo???

i couldn't remember anything na ginawa ko para masaktan ka..lahat tiniis ko nuon..after nung confrontation natin..hindi na'ko nagsalita..pero ikaw??bakit ganyan ka???

you always want to make a fool out of me!if only i could turn back the time...how i wish i'd never met you...you are such a curse to my life!!!...

leave me alone...if you have any issues regarding to whatsoever, why don't you be a man enough to face me and talk to me in person???hindi yung ganyan...

mahiya ka sa girlfriend mo..mahal na mahal ka niya, pero kung umasta ka...para kang walang pakialam sa mundo...

mahiya ka sa akin..mahiya ka sa sarili mo...after all that you'd done to me..sa lahat-lahat ng pasakit na binigay mo..."HINDI KA PA BA TAPOS?ANO PANG GUSTO MONG IPAMUKHA SA AKIN???ANO PA!"..........

tumigil ka na...am so darn pissed off...

sa mga usisera at usisero diyan sa paligid...hindi teleserye ang buhay ko para subay-bayan ninyo..ok???..and i don't have any responsibility to anyone para ikwento ko sa inyo kung sino ang mga karelasyon ko...

am happy with my life and i wish you'll be happy with yours..:)

confused...

what if....

we're still together...would i be happy?


what if i do hold on...will you be mine forever???


what if i asked you that time to chose...will you have me instead???


do i...


moved on already???


or until now am still pretending...


i guess...


i miss you...


i miss your hugs and your kiss...


i miss your hands touching mine...


i miss our laughs and our cries...



i miss the times when you are mad and your crazy mood...


i miss the way you says "i love you" and the times you used to say that "i am your life"...


all in all...i guess i really miss everything about you...


but....


whatever i do..i know i can never have you back...:(

friends???hehehe