Jogging

How I wish that Santiago City is like Da Fort: I can jog at night without taking the weird looks and impressions, "What the hell is she doing?".

Metro mentality, I misses you :(!

Thorn between...

Been bumming around for the past 4 months. It is relaxing at some point, more so, expensive. It has been hard financially on my end, thankfully, I still have my parents to support me. (unconditional love it is) Nevertheless, am not proud of myself.

Everyone that I know knows that I am ambitious, freaking ambitious! And being at this point of my life is not healthy for me. *sigh*

Alright, enough with the bum part...The issue that I have at hand is this: I have two job offers now and I don't know to which I'll sign contract with.

(Clearing my throat) The job offers came from prominent companies. The first one is from an engineering firm that is wildly known and patronized in US. The 2nd one came from a shopping empire. Both positions they are giving are in line with HR...Am really having a hard time to decide.

Asked my friends to which they think would be better and all of them said I should go with the shopping empire. It should be easier for me given all my friends' thoughts but nah...am still doubting. Am confused...confused...and confused!

I am afraid that my decision will end up to the same exact thing I've encountered during my last employment. Just a quick walk on memory lane: My second job, before I signed up with them, I also had the same situation that I am within right now. Job offer from the food and wellness versus the offer from a construction firm: I agreed with the food and wellness. Moreover, after signing with the food and wellness, the thoughts of what ifs came to my mind. It haunted me almost everyday that resulted to my resignation, not good, career suicide! So there, due to that, now am afraid to choose...

Tsk,tsk...been thinking on what to do the whole day and I haven't come near to any yet...Oh my...what to do???

Seems like forever since my last blog...lot had happened...politics,gadgets,personal life etc..funny how the world evolved this past few months...and it happen so freaking fast :))

I turned 21which is a pain for me..am growing old haha.noynoy still a stupid puppet on his seat..bin ladden is dead, good job obama..and ipad2 is now out in the market...woooWww

anyhow,first things first...i have a new job..am not head over heels about it.idk..am not that psych given that i'll be leaving my first company and my family in cts. Ironic it is cause for this past months am cursing my stand with cts and now that am free and with a new company, am now doubting the decision and career move i had made. How hard it is to start over again. What if am not good with this new path of mine? What if my new officemates wouldn't be my buddies as what i have created with cts? Now am really hating cts for placing me to this course. Am most willing to stay with you guys...all am asking is a fair compensation and you can't give it. I hate you for letting me go :((

to be continued...e

LBM

LBM = Looking for better management...

I love my company, i super do. My officemates are my family here yet it is not enough for me to stay..it's time to go... it took me sometime to decide on which is which...am not good at goodbyes...

my company sucks! and i know they know it yet they didn't do anything to improve their shits... hayst

job hunting, goodluck! :)

you suck

ang hirap maging mabait..lalo na kung inaabuso kana...punyeta! pikon na ako!

bored

if boredom can kill, yes am dead...blah, blah, blah...this isn't new to me but yeah...what words can best describe it in the first place???

am bored...am fucked up!!!

how to pull back time???how to be back and dwell forever with my fun memories??? I wanna go home...i wanna be with my friends and darn it i wanna be back to my pigging out life...!!!

it's unfair to judge my ownself but nonetheless, the success i have is a zero that is not to be seen for now...i have been told to slow down and take a break...maybe rate what the hell really i want with my life and so on and so forth but the crap...tell me, how on earth will i stop???

i wanna be a billionaire..i wanna be famous...i wanna stand up my own! yes am 20 but the age scares me..seriously! i should be starting whatever should be started...

i feel like my time is running too fast and i can't hooked it or twinned it to were it supposed to be... am drowning...drowning with my ambition and dreams...hayst...

yes, am tired but no, i don't wanna exhale and breathe...it is not worth it...

help me please...entertain me..redirect me so i will have a new perspective!

politicking...politicking...i wanna be back to politicking...misses the old jessie ;(

Road trip

road trip...

super road trip!!! darn, that was a pain in the ass...literally..haha..

ang 3 hours na byahe ay napunta sa almost 12 hours...grabe, ang tagal kong umupo nuon ah...tsk, tsk...

anyway, atleast nakapunta na ako sa Bolinao, Pangasinan...haha...in addition ay ang bonggang pagpapanggap ko na ako ay pamangkin ni mayor Binay...peace:)..kailangan na talagang mag-imbento dahil medyo ipit na ako and i need good uplifting that moment...haha...

papunta dapat ako ng zaragoza, nueva ecija...ang magaling na kundoktor...maka-ilang bese kong tinatanong kung dadaan dun...ayun, ou lang ng oo...yun pala..ibang zaragoza ang alam ng mokong...haha

basta...basta...

at first am pissed but, later on...all's well...

nitatamad bna kong isulat lahat ng nangyarihaha

pasko..pasko

sabi nila, "IT'S THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY...blah..blah...blah..."

joy to the world churva and all...

oh well, am not feeling the spirit..hehehe:)

idk..maybe am really getting old to feel the excitement of this season...lol

dati kasi..(nung bata pa)...

- you have brand new shoes, dresses and gifts..and money...

ngayon...

you have to deal with all the expenses...

wala na ngang mga bagong gamit..wala pang gift...at...ikaw na ngayon ang magreregalo sa mga junanaks..hehe..bitter ako sa pag-gastos and pagtanda...

***merry christmad nga ba talaga???hmmm........

because you are...

falling...falling...

no more stopping???...

is't worth it???...

ikaw..ikaw!!!oo ikaw...hayst..ang hirap..;(

explain...

tell me that life is fair...

life is just...

if we are created equally, why is that some suffers a lot compare to others???

why are the poor becoming poorer...and the rich richer...???

inconsistencies in life...whom shall we blame..or do we really have the right to blurt our aches???

the blessings...the graces...nasaan na ba talaga??

the guidance...the light...the right path...i guess today is not the day for these things to shine on my life...

is pain essential for living???...to make me strong...to make me grow...moreover, what if...what if...i can't hold on anymore???...

***
takas...takas mode...need a break..bakasyon na!

moving on...

take one step at a time...

nothing's perfect...life's a trash...

must learn to accept...embrace the circumstances...

life...life...

end...then begin...

need...need...

isang tagay na lang ulit...

symposium craze

still...

holding on..waiting for approval...

tsk,tsk..

community service...

do give some care!!!

hating the pressure...but not aiming for failure...

change..change...nothing against who ever or what ever...

let me do my job..